*Proof of Heaven was a book written by a neuroscientist, Eben Alexander, on his near-death experience with the after-life. It was a book both Carl and I read before his death on August 28, 2014.
I am here in Boston for the Boston Early Music Festival, a “week-long extravaganza of early music,” and I am revisiting many of the places my late husband, Carl, and I visited together: the Boston Commons, Church of the Advent, the home of Edith Ho, and the Legal Seafoods restaurant. And it is no wonder that last night I had a dream in which the sight and sound of Carl was so incredibly vivid, and so realistic, that I thought for sure he is trying to communicate with me.
I was sitting around a picnic table in a park with Simon Crookall (Hawaii Opera Theater) and Stephen Strugnell (Chamber Music Hawaii) discussing Carl’s upcoming memorial concert in the fall. All of a sudden, Carl joined us at the table, and he was looking healthy and wearing a green shirt. I asked him, “Are you for real?” He reached under the table and squeezed my hand. I remember his hand was strong, and I took hold with both of my hands.
I asked Simon and Stephen, “Do you see Carl?” and they both said yes.
[Why I had both of them in the dream is a mystery, because although I had asked both of them about a possible date conflict, that has been the extent of their involvement.]
Later, I was driving the car with Carl in the passenger seat, and Tim Carney in the back. I asked Tim, “Do you see Carl?” and he said no. Now, Tim will be conducting the concert, so I guess it’s okay that he was in the dream.
At that moment I was in that state of semi-consciousness between sleeping and waking, and I was aware that I could hear Carl breathing because the rhythm of it was different from my own. Gradually, though, the sound of his breathing faded away.
After some brief research via Google, I found out this experience is called a “visitation dream,” and some experts say it is part of the bereavement process. There seem to be no end to articles on the subject, but read this one:
Dream Visitation: Why the Deceased Show Up in Your Sleep
I guess Carl is enjoying himself in Boston!